when i'm don't quite feel like writing much, i write like this, listing down the random thoughts that are in my head.
1. i've said this for one time too many already, but glee is really really good. after watching lost for so long, where everything is always so intense, so mysterious, where there're always more questions than answers - but no doubt compelling - glee, with its light-hearted drama and brilliant song re-dones and dance choreography, is like a breath of fresh air. very nice.
2. my mum was telling me about how difficult it would be for us to own a car, quite out of the blue. we're doing ok financially i think, but getting a car would mess that up a little she seemed to be telling me. which really put into perspective just how different things are between myself, and people i know whose family owns car/cars. but so what? i don't need car(s) to be happy. many around me are grumbling that working in a optical shop is boring, not fulfilling, and to put it concisely, it sucks. yet, it is where the money lie. and honestly, for fresh graduates to be drawing the kind of money, it's substantial. yet i, the one whose family do not own a car am reluctant to draw that kind of money, simply because i know that i wouldn't be happy.
now i know that i'm probably sounding really idealistic, but here's some food for thought. what i choose to do, something that i enjoy - teaching - i easily out-earn anyone working in a shop on a per hour basis. the money isn't great, simply because there're only so many hours you can teach as compared to the hours you can spend in a shop, but at least everytime that i work, i feel like i am achieving something, not just for myself, but i'm impacting the lives of others in a (hopefully) positively manner as well.
but well, who am i to say that all who work in an optical shop aren't happy? i'm just saying, for you who make money your choice, i just hope that eventually you grow to love whatever it is that you have chosen.
3. and speaking of money, i've gotten a great amount of respect for those who are independent and as far as possible not depend on their parents for money. good for you. there're those who go about spending their parent's money and i think, what's so great about that?
4. also, having spent 2 weeks in taiwan and countless dull hours watching their excuse for a variety show, i've learnt that i don't like those shows. it's not a matter of me not giving them a chance as was the case in singapore. i just don't like them. and i'm glad that i no longer have an excuse to have to try and enjoy them.
5. i saw this documentary where they tried to explain why it is the women who're generally more willing to forgive their cheating husbands and not the other way round. it is reasoned that since it is almost impossible for a male to know for sure that the child that his partner gives birth to is his without a dna test done, men are wired to be extremely jealous with regards to his partner's fidelity because wasting his considerable time and resources bringing up a child with another man's genetic make-up would be catastrophic for the survival of his own genes set. women on the other hand, forgive their unfaithful husbands because they're wired to protect and nurture their offsprings and so, for the sakes of her children, she would more readily forgive her husband, who traditionally takes the role of the provider of the family. and so ladies, the absolute biggest turn off to a guy, able to make him cool whatever interest he had in you, is to double-time him. you've been warned. or if you're looking to get rid of a guy, you've been advised.
6. i'm really really glad that i managed to speak to jason today, and he put things into perspective for me. and i feel so encouraged that my friends that i know from different stages and in different walks of life have offered me support and time and time again, they've re-convicted my belief that i've done the right thing. friends like this, whom i see once a year, twice if i'm lucky, yet with whom i can be completely honest with are priceless. they've been like big brothers to me, mentoring me, challenging me, and always ready to lend me a helping hand. and i'd like to thank them so much. then there're friends who aren't quite mentor figures, but very much peers (you know who you are), thank you too. i've made a curious observation though - those in the first category are pretty much all guys yet those in the later are girls. go figure.
7. while i've never been the biggest fan of mandopop (jay chou is the sole exception) there's been a couple of songs that's been stuck in my head ever since i heard them in taiwan. today's soundtrack are these exact 2 songs. the first, 最近 was a song that bingsheng introduced, and the second 只为爱上你 was something that kelvin played on our van. 只为爱上你 in particular has extremely high ring tone potential for my phone, and that's saying ALOT because my phone is always on the silent mode. i can't quite put a finger on it, but it's got such a happy vibe to it and it puts me in a good mood every time i listen to it. the first SHE song in my library it is going to be, and the first song that i'm going to sing the next i go to the ktv. and this is how i shall end this entry - with a happy, happy song.