tired of the weather

i need a break. from football.

and this has been a long time coming, with my enthusiasm draining with each passing day. especially with me feeling football to be tedious and dull, with me finding it hard to rouse myself out of second gear. and to compound matters, the only football of reasonable level that i'm getting is from the sp team training (once a week). and while we still kick a ball around in training, drills just are not the same as the challenge and excitement of a game.

additionally, i think that my time was spent kicking a ball around most of the time, playing my weekends away, on saturdays (twice on the same day on numerous occasions), on sundays (twice on the same day on some occasions) an before i know it, it's the end of the weekend, and back to school and back to the trainings of both the sp and the cls team trainings.

the perfect formula of burning out from something: a lack of renewing motivation, of novelty, of excitement and challenge and over-doing it.

but the thing is that while i might want to take a break, focus my energies on some other things, watch some movies that i want to (the dark knight sounds really good), catch up with my school work, maybe play some computer games that i didn't have time to, maybe re-watch some of my favourite movie dvds, that does not- does not- mean that i do not love football anymore.

i may not even miss football, no, and could well even enjoy my hiatus, both physically and mentally from what drained me empty in the first place, but still, that does not mean that i intend to stop playing football.

i just need to find my zeal back- that's all. do that and i'll be back, with the pedal to the metal.

all it take's a little patience, understanding and time. and perhaps a little help along the way, with someone, anyone, perhaps organising a match with some half decent teamates and opponents just for kicks.

after all, i've never, NEVER doubted my love.