Saturday, 28 July 2007

dreams are meant for sleeping

pride comes before a fall. indeed. i was proud. i was proud of what i had, who i was, where i was heading. fiercely proud, in fact. it wasn't arrogance mind you, it was pride. i never went around boasting about myself, but i took great pride in the things that were mine. i always thought that pride is a positive trait. that it makes you put in a hundred percent into your endeavours. apparently i was mistaken. apparently i was so very mistaken. then came the fall. the higher you are, the harder the fall they say, and fall i did. and fall hard i did. the changeability of life. from someone who felt like he had it all, to someone who lost everything in a space of months. i lost everything that i was proud of, that i took great pride in, one by one, one after another. blow after blow. then came the sucker punch that sent me reeling. that day i broke down. and for a long time i couldn't get up.

time sure flies. really.

and life does have its own sense of humor. today, 28th july 2007, i was at ginza plaza. i was there before the match at clementi woods secondary school, after my training. it felt- strange, 365 days on to be there, of all places. it felt like i was there, as i pictured the scene of yesteryear in my mind, matching them with my own memories. funnier still, ginza plaza was being torn down. a fleeting sense of justification shot through me, and i couldn't help but smirk as i took the wreck of a building in. i really can't find a way to describe how i felt then, and what exactly went through my mind; words just cannot convey the gamut of emotions that i felt. (cliched as it sounds) even more amusing was that the match was postponed due to the cancelling of the field booking due to rain. "sian". even now, i still can't get to play football. irony, irony.

anyhow, vanessa hudgens is stunning. absolutely. my reason for watching high school musical.

matt,
23:58:00